I just wanted to apologize for that last journal. x'D
; v ; I'm sorry you had to deal with my emotional poop, aiya hgjfkdlsasd
And I'm sorry too, to the Anons, for taking it out on you.
I feel really bad for dropping such a load on all of you,
I basically used the journal as an emotional toilet.
But you guys did help flush some of the troubles away,
and I really do appreciate it!
I have yet to reply to all of them, but I have read every single comment and from
I'LL STOP WITH THE BATHROOM JOKES I'M SORRY I COULDN'T HOLD IT IN
OTL I'm sorry butt I just crack myself up sometimes.
OKAY NOW I'M DUNG. LOLOL.
Okay. NOW I'm done.
ASDFGH I'M SORRY, as unserious as this sounds, I really do
; A ; I'm sorry you guys have to put up with me ghfdjsk I will try to contain my emotions next time ack x'D
I have been going through some real life things that have made me
And I feel really bad because I took advantage of the fact that there are many people watching me and used the journal as a sort of release.
And I understand that not many people have the benefit of such sweet watchers but still want to be heard - just like me.
I am so blessed to have all of you. When I type my journals, I love being able to see who can relate, who agrees, and even who disagrees.
And when I'm down I have people that comfort me and support me, but most importantly: remind me that I'm not alone.
Now, I am not justifying the behaviour of any anonymous bashers, but I can see why they would feel the need to voice their opinion, good or bad.
Anyway, I was going to type a long big blurb about thoughts post my BAWWW journal, but you can just go read the comments if you're interested because everyone words things better than me, hahaha.
I feel like people show me things because they want a sassy response from me... x'D
If you know what comments I am responding about, please do not post it in this journal.
Okay I know my anatomy is bad ; v ; kkk. I will get better one day, maybe, idk, kk.
But just because people keep having diarrhea over this, here:
Now the head isn't "hideously" big anymore
And since people thought I should "clean" up my messy work, here:
I cleaned this picture so hard that it's even MORE shiny and has left over bubbles from the washing machine!
And people kept saying that her eyes have no soul so I drew something with my heart and soul. I call it: Kokoro's last doki.
And since people keep complaining about "kawaii uguu" artists that draw little girls with eyes the size of the moon in frilly pastel pajamas,
what do you want us to draw?
Tiny-eyed men in spandex?
You speak with your "freedom of expression" but shouldn't art be free too?
I call this one, "Freedom"
Just so that no one gets butt hurt by my 'lazy' work, I hope you know I that I broke both my legs, all my arms, three and a half fingers, AND MY SOUL in the process of drawing these pieces because of all the effort I put into them.
But in all serious, I know that it's important to go beyond your boundaries and draw outside of your comfort zone. I can't imagine a better way to improve your skills in art and I do encourage it to those that want to improve.
Honestly, I would love to put more time into my art and practicing but I won't be able to do so for a few months longer.
I will improve when I feel that I can dedicate the time to it.
I do not force people to like my art, they choose to like it.
If people like my messy, poorly-proportioned, generic anime girls, then I'm sorry
If you do not like messy art, I'm sorry, but I will not change it for you,
And if messy is your only complaint about my art work,
I hope you know that there are many beautiful works out there that are 'messy.' Messy does not always mean bad. And messy does not always mean there is a lack of effort.
I think more valid complaints would be the lack of a true light source in my shading, my bad anatomy, my stiff poses, my lack of variety, not trying to do backgrounds, etc etc.
Anyway, really and truly, thank you watchers for putting up with me.
For being there when I'm down, for enjoying my art work, and for PUTTING UP WITH ALL MY RUBBISH. x'D I'm sorry!
I am almost an adult, I really need to grow up, ahaha. x'D I'm still an immature brat.
I'm also sorry if I've been a little more harsh lately.
I know I'm never serious, but I genuinely appreciate all that you do for me.
*Sorry for any typos/grammar mistakes! I wrote this in a rush!